Monday, February 20, 2006

Illness

I misled you
I’m sorry

You needed someone
I needed someone to need me
I found you

It’s my fault
I admit it
You are a sycophant
But I made you that way

I’m letting you go
Or cutting you off
However you need to see it
Suck someone else dry
Leave me alone

Come back
I’m alone again
I didn’t realize I would be alone
There’s a gaping hole where you were
A vacuum I can’t fill
Come back

Jesus, you’re always here
Needing me
Wanting me
Stifling me
Draining me
Leave me
Please

And don’t come back
No matter what I say
Or what I think I want
Because you’re not it
No matter how I beg
You’re the symptom
Not the cure
And I’m so sick

16 comments:

Scorpy said...

What was that song? '..Breaking up is hard to do'???? They were not kidding! Very well written btw
PS: the first 3 letters of word verification spelt 'SAD' very apt

Dirk the Feeble said...

Oh yes, dude!

Those last three lines . . . well done. I really felt your pain. Seriously, I want to kill myself right now - that's how good you are!

Coyote Mike said...

what's interesting is, you could be talking about anything from the love of your life, to a candy bar or a vibrator.

Told ya you could write :D

Laurie (aka buggy) said...

Way to portray the angel and devil on each shoulder Meghie.

It's funny, yanno, well not really that funny. But - sometimes it's way more exciting to listen to that devil.
When you listen to it, you know deep down that afterwards you will wish you listened to the angel.
And it's always the case.

Okay can you tell my own issues are coming out here?
Ugh. I had a mad weekend. One where I'm so mad at myself. I swear up and down on the rules and I break them all. And I'm so pissed off at myself right now. And I wish so bad I could redo things.
Okay too much.

And I'm making my comments on your post about me!

I'm so self absorbed!!!

I NEED CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM.

meghansdiscontent said...

Scorpy - Thank you, thank you. But you thought this was sad??

Arm - Knowing you I should take that entire comment sarcastically. But I refuse to open my eyes and will say: Thanks.

Coyote Mike - Ah, but what is it that I am talking about??

Laurie - Honey doll, perhaps we should talk! EMAIL me, in fact, definitely email me because my account went haywire and I lost your last one with the info I needed for us to discuss . . the things we need to discuss!

trueborn said...

I'd give you a hug were I nearby Megs.

Coyote Mike said...

Its not for me to say what it is. I have a few guesses, but it does't really matter what it is I think you are talking about. What matters is, people, me included, can relate this work to their own lives and feel a connection to the words that goes beyond whatever it is that triggered the words in you.

How's that for an English Teacher Answer? :P

qwer said...

Is that a song? Reading it, it really really felt like it could have music behind it.

Laurie (aka buggy) said...

Meghie - and here I am thinking you just didn't email me back. Biatch. ;P
I may be too ashamed to tell ANYONE bout my bad night. I'll have to think on that one.
Pleh.

Laurie (aka buggy) said...

However there are other things to be discussed!!!

Steph said...

As always. Nicely done Megs.*hugs*

janestarr said...

I am going to comment on both the previous and the current post. I think we hang on to people because we are afraid we will never meet anyone else. I sure as hell thought there could be no one better than the man that I just had, and I would be stuck as the broken hearted bitch, yet the hurt is softening and the hope is returning. A bunch of crap it is, too, since I was doing so good being hard core...okay, not really ;)

Scorpy said...

Sorry but yes from my perspective I thought it was sad. I think I put myself in the place of the one that had to leave...sort of brings back bad memories...but I loved reading it again.

meghansdiscontent said...

Trueborn - Thanks, hon, but it's unnecessary. I'm good. :)

Coyote Mike - Pretty good, kid, pretty good.

TFS - Care to write the music??? We could definitely sell it and get some royalties, if you think it's worth it.

Laurie - I would NEVER not e-mail you back, chica!! And forget about the bad night, talking about it will just make it resurface. But you're right . . there are MANY more things to discuss. EMAIL ME!

Steph - Thank you, doll. - kiss on your cheek -

Janestarr - I adore you, lady, but you're right . . . you're about as hard core as I am. And, ummm, yeah, that's pretty damn hard. Uh huh. You're right though, we hold on from fear.

Scorpy - I'm glad you enjoyed it, but apologetic for the sorrow. Thanks for sharing your perspective. Odd how things hit us all so differently.

qwer said...

If only I could write music. I can hear the music for it in my head, right down to the guitar change mid way through but I don't have the creative ability to capture what's in my head and put it down on paper.

It sounds like a bloody good song in here though.

Anonymous Assclown said...

Enabler or supporter
Crutch or a shoulder to lean on
Anchor or anchor
Parasite or partner.

Both sides of the same coin.