1 - I’m not depressed, kids.
Thank you guys, more than you know, for your concern. It means a lot to me that you care!!! Only, I'm not depressed. On this I can swear. Regardless of the posts, I’m not depressed. I’m happier and healthier than I have been in a long time. I’m living it up. The writings of last week were just that: Writings. Memories. Played out on paper. Getting them out is what keeps me as happy as I am. It’s a cleansing. Now, proof that I’ve been happy:
A - I spent Thursday morning working, Thursday afternoon watching an old VHS of MTV’s Greatest Videos Ever from 1987 . . . courtesy of my momma. Valerie and I spent the afternoon shimmying around the house to Beat It, Devil Inside, 1999, Take On Me, Shout, Addicted to Love and the like. Thursday evening playing with my “niece” who was one-year old as of Feb 8th and Thursday night sitting in a hot tub being delivered drinks by handsome older men.
B - I spent Friday in bed. Reading. Reading, reading, reading. When I finally stopped reading, it was only to pull out another oldie but goodie. Instead of going to the gym in the cold, I pulled out 1997's MTV “The Grind” danceaerobic video and did the Gator, Box Step, Pump It Out, etc until I couldn’t breathe. I haven’t had that much fun in a LONG time. HILARIOUS! I then showered, got all dolled up and headed out on the town with friends. Got hit on a few times, got a tad tipsy, kissed a very cute boy and got the smell of cigarette smoke permenantly lodged (I fear) in one of my favorite tops.
C - I spent Saturday watching MetalHead music videos, the Winter Olympics and other random things with my brother, his cutie roommates and my baby puppy. I rarely have as much fun doing ANYTHING as I do just being with my brother . . . but being with him and his roommates takes a close second. Those boys are insane. High comedy, people, high comedy. Saturday afternoon, our lovely Birdie met me at their place and we went shopping. Then we met my parents (they flew back in from Costa Maya, Belize, Cancun and Cozymel Saturday - cruise - punks) at my house with my brother and we all went out to eat. Again, nothing like being with family . . . and your best friend. The best night I’ve had in months. When Birdie left, the family watched a movie together then my brother went to his house, my father went to bed and then the nerds that mom and I truly are broke out. We watched 5 hours of Jeopardy and tried to beat each other answering questions. We’ve done this since Jeopardy first started. When I moved out, we started taping them so we could watch them together and compete. We watch them whenever we can be alone together. Secret mother-daughter type stuff, you understand.
D - I woke up Sunday and got some one-on-one daddy time. We sat around, talked sports, brewed coffee, made a grocery list and just talked. About everything. Then we went to Wal-Mart and bought the makings of a fantabulous brunch. Ham, sausage, bacon, makings for French Toast, makings for omelettes, orange juice for the Champagne my parents had brought from the cruise, etc. etc. etc. My brother came back over and the four of us spent the morning/early afternoon cooking, dancing around the kitchen to Steely Dan’s AJA album, getting drunk of Champagne Mimosas and just being a family. When my parents had to leave, my brother and I stayed at my place, watched a movie and then went for a run with Kady (my most fantabulously cute puppy). After he left, I caught up on some e-mail and IM responsibilities, did some laundry and reflected on how lucky I am. I have a family that most people can’t even imagine, friends that are amazing beyond reason and everything I could ever want . . . save someone to share my life with. But you know, I feel complete without it. I have more than most people ever will.
2 - You’re not going to like my next post.
Some of you, particularly newcomers, will think I’m being depressive and self-pitying. The truth of it is, a lot of you have been asking about my illnesses and my absences . . and this will explain most of it. I’ve had some opinions from friends telling me not to post it. That I don’t have to explain or go into detail. But, I know how I am when I want answers to others questions. . . so here are my answers to yours. It will probably be up later today.
3 - I’m lazy.
There are SO many comments I want to comment on, but I would end up in the comment sections of the posts I’ve neglected for hours. Just know I read all your comments and you guys are wonderful! DON’T worry so much about me! I’m happy and healthy and having a blast! I will, however, go to NashVegas (BG, you crack my stuff up with that) soon . . . because I miss BG desperately and it’s my turn to see her environment. Ang - chica, you are so right - we could tear it up. I would even give you one of my blowpops when we go out! :) That way you can REALLY catch you a man. Ha ha ha! Steph, melancholiness is alright. We’re all there one time or another . . . you’re so right. It helps us heal, but we can’t live our lives there. I promise you I’m not. And on and on and on. . . . But I’m too lazy to answer them all now. I need to stay on top of them - - 5 at a time - - so I don’t get too overwhelmed. I promise to do that! :)
4 - I’ve missed you guys.
I’m so behind on blogs. I admit to being a lurker, when time permitted, and reading some of your blogs - but not commenting YET. I’m not promising to catch up, but I’m promising to be back for your new ones. :) You guys now how it is!!! I need to see if Rolligun has ceased being so attractive to stare at in public airports, if Auburn enjoyed her bartending experience, if Jen has found some cutie maternity clothes, if Laurie let Barbie back in her group, if Trueborn is still swamped with schoolwork and ladies, if Indiana is back from hiatus, if Bone has realized the extent of his own genius, if Mike is moving or staying put, if Kate is still keeping us aware of the latest political happenings, and all you other guys . . . I could be listing for DAYS.
HUGS all around, kids!