Thursday, March 09, 2006

Because Otherwise I Will; And Do

Tell me not to admire you
When your words are amazing
When your compassion is so touching
When your devotion is so strong
Because otherwise I will
And do

Tell me not to question
When we don’t have the answers
When we haven’t even begun
When we don’t know what we are
Because otherwise I will
And do

Tell me not to change
When I feel like I should be better for you
When I want to be what you need
When I’m not sure I’m what you want
Because otherwise I will
And do

Tell me not to miss you
When you’re not here
When we’re not in contact
When I wake up without you
Because otherwise I will
And do

Tell me not to fear losing you
When I don’t even have you
When I’m not sure I ever will
When I just found you
Because otherwise I will
And do

Tell me not to love you
When there’s so much unknown
When I want to so badly
When I’m so certain of it
Because otherwise I will
And do

Tell me
Anything

As long as your voice is in my ear
As long as your words envelope me
As long as I’m drowning in you
As long as you can
As long as you want to
Forever
Please

24 comments:

Drunken Chud said...

ok: Don't admire me, don't question, don't change, don't miss me, don't fear losing me. but i can't tell you not to love me megs... i mean, that's just shooting myself in the foot.

beachgirl said...

Oh megs that was beautiful but do you really think you should have put your feelings about chud out there for the world to see?? You should have known he would figure it out, b/c he's so freakin smart!!!

Lizzie said...

That was really beautiful, Meg.

Faltenin said...

You've done it again, Meg...

trueborn said...

hmmmmmm
things seem to be heating up...

Scorpy said...

Tell me not to admire you
When your words are amazing
When your compassion is so touching
When your devotion is so strong
Because otherwise I will
And do

You are brilliant...I love this paragraph. You must be an amazing person to see so much and you paint such great pictures for all of us.

Coyote Mike said...

so, when do we get the story of whoever it is that is making your both giggly and worried? Other than chud, I mean.

Steph said...

Do we get extra points for guessing who it is you're talking about? ;)

meghansdiscontent said...

Chud - I'd hate for you to shoot yourself in the foot! :)

Beachgirl - I know it was ill advised, but the world deserved to know. As did poor Chud, I mean . . .no one else is lovin on him.

Lizzie - Thank you, babe.

Faltenin - Flatterer. :)

Trueborn - Um hm. Hopefully. Please. Oh please, oh please, oh please. If I could only be so lucky. I really don't think you guys understand how amazing this man is.

Scorpy - You're such a great guy for saying that! :) I wish I was a better writer. I keep reading this and thinking - - no one will ever understand how wonderful he really is. He's far too good for me. Hence my FEAR!

Coyote Mike - I'm unsure of how or when to tell the story. Maybe one day.

Steph - Ah ha! What makes you think you could??? Sounds like you assume he has a blog. . . . :) Go for it, sister. I'll let ya guess. But YOU would, of course, guess Rolligun. Hmmm . ..

auburn said...

"He's far too good for me."

Girl, SLAP yourself for that!

Not too hard, I don't mean to make you hurt yourself, but sheesh...

NOBODY is far too good for you.
NOBODY is even a little bit too good for you.
YOU are amazing.
You're freaking fantastic.
You are so much more than most people could hope to be, and any guy...no matter how wonderful or seemingly perfect he is...ANY guy is going to be a damn lucky man to end up with you, even for a little while.

What you wrote was beautiful. I just want to cut and paste it onto my heart in the hopes that I will feel that again.
But you are far more beautiful.
And you deserve the world.
I hope this guy is smart enough to give it to you.
AND i hope he gives you blog time, because my blog misses your wisdom:(

Love you honey. Sorry for the slap!
xo

sqg said...

Wow. I think I'm in love.

janestarr said...

Love you Megs

ChickyBabe said...

Simply beautiful!

Drunken Chud said...

britt, thanks for not shooting me down right off the bat. :-)

this guy sounds great. (or girl??? we can hope...) and for the record i will be constantly trying to move in on his territory. just a heads up.

Laurie (aka buggy) said...

U like him you really like him!!

:)

Rolligun said...

Well I can't argue with such unconditional passion you have, and I do agree that you should be willing to do more than you ever have, for the person you love, but I don't think that should ever include changing for them. You are the person you are for reasons that are different from what builds that mutual devotion. Do love, but don't change or question who you are, becuase that's the person that needs to be loved in return.

meghansdiscontent said...

Auburn - Goodness. I know that sounded very self deprecating, but it's not how I meant it. He's just amazingly fantastic and I HOPE I get to spend a lot of time WITH HIM wondering "How did I ever deserve this?" But thank you for the terrific pep talk! Don't apologize for the slap, I probably need one! Love you, too, girlie!

Sqg - Uh huh. WITH YOUR WIFE. :)

Janestarr - Love you, too, chica.

Chickybabe - Danka!

Chud - I try and be a nice girl. Guy, guy, guy. NO girls for me. Nu uh. As for moving in . . .ha ha ha, good luck. I have only eyes for him.

Laurie - Ohhhhhhh yeeeaaahhhhh. And it's as scary as it is wonderful. I've been apathetic so long, I don't know how to deal with this whole flood of emotions.

Rolli - Lead pipe, you just think I'm the cat's meow and can't see the things I need to change. :) Changing is not such a bad thing . . . as long as the core essentials of who you are remain. But thank you for the advice, I will always take any advice from you to heart.

Rolligun said...

I don't even like cats, we have a mutually tolerable relationship at best. So no, I don't think of you as the "cat's meow" as you say.

I do however like dogs, and I consider you, my dear, to be the "dog drool"

This is a step up.

Rolligun said...

...and the blather about changing and all that is fair enough, I lumped it all together, but you have a point, a small point, but either way the stuff about someone doubting themselves still stands, that's a waste of everyone's time.

Anonymous Assclown said...

Hate to be Master of the Obvious, but have you considered showing this poem to him?

Bone said...

That made me shiver the first two times I read it.

I think that's good :)

Drunken Chud said...

i never said my plans included being successful. i simply said i would be constantly trying. it's the chase i enjoy. hehehehehe.

meghansdiscontent said...

Rolli - Hammer, I hate cats, too, but I think you KNEW what I was going for there. And I guess I'll take being the dog's drool. That works. And doubting yourself is a waste of time . . . but, it can also be a motivation to be better.

Anon Cow - Something tells me he's seen it.

Bone - You're a doll! Shiver, eh?? :)

Chud - Imagine that, a guy that likes the chase better than the reward. Shocker.

Anonymous Assclown said...

That's not good enough