Friday, May 05, 2006

Climbing

I’m still unsure
Did I open the gate
Or did you scale the walls
Using the spaces where others removed bricks
As footholds to throw yourself over

You, who are everything and nothing
Duality at it’s finest
Confident, self assured
But finding yourself lacking
Distancing yourself for safety
Opening yourself for comfort
But still locking things away
Hiding as much as you show
What others see isn’t your reality

Your walls still firmly in place
Would you let me in if I asked
Swing the gate wide
Or make me search for footholds

19 comments:

Steph said...

I don't know what to say hun. I just wanted you to know that i read, and that i care.
I hope you're ok.

Jenni said...

He got in some how. But he won't let you in....I love reading your stuff...makes me think and feel.

Naomi said...

Beautiful... I just stumbled across your blog and I will definately read on - your words are so vivid.

meghansdiscontent said...

Steph - Thanks for letting me know you're here. I'm fine, chica, I promise. Things are good.

Jenni - Well if it isn't the mother of a son-to-be! :) I'm just so excited for you that I could burst. Glad I can make you think and feel, sweetie. Funny thing . . he might let me in if I would just ask. Problem: I won't ask.

Naomi - Glad to have you here! Thank you so much.

Carl from L.A. said...

Life is short. Don't spend too much time scaling walls.

Carl from L.A. said...

...or building them.

Ang said...

Me thinks you had a good week or something!! Your enthusiasm for life is palpable right now...what's going on? oh, right...my turn to email! This weekend...won't even ditch out for sex!!

Coyote Mike said...

Good poem.

Officially Fabulous said...

Okay, Brit~ I'm going to have to give you a dose of YOURSELF here. We are SOOO good at giving objective advice to others, yet RARELY take our own. So, my two cents... ASK. There is NO harm in ASKING, right? And if he's WORTH IT, you will KNOW. Beautiful poem...
~Fab : )~

Faltenin said...

Ever tried sending him an email that just says "Open Sesame"?

angel, jr. said...

Being part of the male race, I can honestly say we make people scale the walls and only let them look down into us, if they ever climb in, we find a way to propel them back out.

Laurie (aka buggy) said...

I've started "Charmed Thirds.."

janestarr said...

I dig the prose, Meg. I like the part about the footholds where bricks have been removed by others...excellent!

auburn said...

"Did I open the gate
Or did you scale the walls"

Did you siphen that from my head?

Honey, you continue to write beautifully. I get what you're feeling, absolutely.

He should swing the gate wide if he has half a brain...

Rolligun said...

Scale the walls.

Always scale the walls.

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Anonymous said...

are you ever coming back?

Anonymous said...

Obviously, the prudent thing to do would be to go around, or burn the fucker down.

Scorpy said...

Brilliant...yet again...and just as haunting. I love the wayn you constructed the first stanza (?)...the way you referenced those that have been there, unsuccessfully, before...trying to scale the facade. I have built many walls as they have crumbled and worn away but the defences are still there and I am afraid they will never go away...I hope yours do xx