Friday, July 21, 2006


He called me this morning.

His voice broken down by time, emotion and fear.
A shell of the man I had committed myself to.

"I'm in Little Rock. Bricky, I'm having surgery and I'm here alone. I'm alone and I'm scared."

The silence between us expanded as I thought of what I should do.
As I pictured him lying there in a sterile room.
As I raised my hand and looked at where his ring once was.
As I lowered my hand to the womb where his child once grew.

"Brittany, I need you."

My voice was cold.
My words slow, quiet and measured.

"I needed you once, too."

I heard him sob as I hit End.


Anonymous said...

Oh, can I write a chapter? Let me try.

I heard him sob as I hit End.

I sneered to myself as I walked across the room filled with charred and mutilated bodies. Yes, I needed him to add to my collection of dead corpses.

The phone rang again, I calmly answered.


"Bricky! (sobs) I think we got disconnected!"

My voice was still cold.

"I hung up on you."

"But I need you!"

"When you're lieing on the cold operating room table and you're wondering if you're going to live or die, I want you to do something for me."

(gasping sobs) "What, Bricky?"

"I want to you realize that if you don't die, when you come out, I'm going to stab you in the throat, turn you upside town and make you into a planter for my petunias outside!"

"But Bricky!"

I cut him off with a loud belch in his ear, because I felt gassy.

I shouted into the phone, "THIS CONVERSATION IS OVER!" as I hit End.

Coyote Mike said...

You get to be karma for him. And it is no less than he deserves.

Rolligun said...

I can't say whether I think that was right or wrong -- so I'm glad you're not asking, instead know that you've carried yourself well in the past and you will do so in the future, regardless of the pain or the choices

Carl from L.A. said...

You did the right thing.

Never look back.

PJ said...

Why is it necessary to have this person in your life?

I'm glad you hung up. He's got a wife he can lean on if he needs someone.

Your heart doesn't need to be pulled around like a yo-yo anymore.

Dorothy said...

Nice of him to pick at YOUR scars from the hospital bed.

Just shows you though, that he hasn't changed. His needs are still more important to him. Did he think about what that call would do to you?


Lizzie said...

At a certain point you just have to look out for yourself and put yourself first. I know you're not asking but for what it's worth, I think you did the right thing.

Drunken Chud said...

wow, cold. yet, strangely arousing... i approve.

angel, jr. said...

There comes moments in your life when you have to look out for yourself...and I don't feel that putting your emotional well being first is cruel.